// from whiskeyandcoke
// from bippityboppityboo
Someone asked me today: “How do you see God visibly loving you at this time in your life?” And after a few minutes of silence, I swallowed hard and finally said this:
My family fell apart while I was in college. My parents moved several states away (different states) to find a way to make their lives a little better for them (which I supported) than it was close by to me in North Carolina. The word ‘home’ became a loose term, which I desperately sought to define its true meaning those few years after the divorce. I did my best to not let my family circumstances define who I was, or let a single soul see just how much it affected me. I became numb to the entire situation.
While trying to maintain a friendship with God, I began to seek love, affection and approval in several places besides the heart of Jesus. All which practically broke my heart, and one specifically that pierced the numbness—broke what I thought to be an invincible shield. It was a low place that I had never yet experienced, and wanted out of immediately.
But then I began to feel him, and hear him—practically SEE him. He became almost human to me—Jesus that is. Crying myself to sleep at night—he was there—ALL THERE. In the moments I know I should have felt most lonely, he was the most real.
And so it is today, and in this new chapter of my life. There are so many chances for loneliness to consume me, but he’s just all there. And I can’t deny it.
Caramel apple cupcakes by The Girl Who Ate Everything
i have a thing for cupcakes these days.
// from justbesplendid
beautiful proposal. best part is - they’re two of my very sweet friends. can’t wait till November 4th.
// from designtraveller
a little sneak peek from my studio visit with lauren moffatt. i am so excited for the spring 2012 collection!
so jealous of everyone getting to enjoy NYC fashion week.
// from calivintage